beautiful & treacherous thing

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it has come to my attention that i don't really do this blogging thing as i used to. (i've been reading through my old xangas you see.) it has been really good for me i think. it has stopped me from turning all the events of my life into one line hilarities to be posted for an audience who :of course: was waiting with baited breath for my next bit of cleverness. (smirk at my own ridiculousness). it has made me live in my life, and less on my internet. which was what i had hoped for. and i'm glad for that. however, there remain things that i like about blogging, however frequently, cryptically, wordily, straightforwardly or whateveredly, that i do it.

i've never really blogged traditionally. i mean ... i've never kept people updated on my life through my blog. i'm not sure what that's about. i keep up with most in other ways. and i like those other ways better.

but tonight, as i sit procrastinating the next 300 pages of my monaco text book that need to be skimmed ... i thought i would say ...

my mom is visiting. she came two days before thanksgiving and is leaving tomorrow. it's been good to have her. she is going to kyiv to visit my oldest sister, carin, for twenty days ... leaving on friday. she and dad will be back at christmas. i'm hosting this year. i'm really quite excited. my whole house is decorated with the exception of the spot that sits bare waiting for the christmas tree. ariel and i are driving :way: out of the city to cut one down ourselves tomorrow. apparently, by this time of the year, all of the christmas tree farms close to the city are picked over already. so, we're beginning our tradition. we aren't going to wisconsin, as we had talked about. but we're going far enough. i'm pretty sure that it's going to be good for my heart. in two and a half weeks i will graduate from covenant college. i have quite a bit to do, as can be imagined, but it's certainly coming together nicely. not without some procrastination, but nicely none the less. after graduation, after christmas, and after a trip to texas in january, i will find a job. a job that i love. and i realize, that may be more difficult that i anticipate. i am going to covenant presbyterian church. i take care of the kiddos during the thursday morning mom's bible study and l.o.v.e. it. i babysit often, and for the coolest families of all time. i have a spot at church. and that is so important to me. the kiddos at church know me, and that makes it feel like home. two sundays ago, jodee lewis (of the spares, an endorsement for their upcoming cd will soon come) sang poor wayfaring stranger during communion and it was one of the coolest things ever. because of that one moment i've stopped missing rock creek fellowship in a gutwrenching sort of way, and instead love the new community i have been given. my peter and my viv are as wonderful as ever. last night i said: "vivian, i just really really love you." and vivian replied: "and i just really really love olivia." so, clearly, they haven't changed so much that you've lost track of them.

and that, right now, is my life. i study, i go to church, i walk the dog sometimes, i hang out with peter and viv, i babysit (reed and annie and grace are the coolest ones), i sleep enough, i watch the tv that matters, i fall asleep watching friends on dvd, and i drink coffee.

overall, things are good. things are busy, but things are good.

early mornings cleanse my soul.
(i can't help but think of the time ariel said:
"shut. up. :everything: cleanses your soul.) :grin:
this is what i see from my roof in the mornin.